Twenty years ago next January, I started my editorial business. I sent a lot of letters/emails, set up my first website, and built a wide client base, from publishers and authors to charities, businesses and government bodies.
All of this required, I felt, wearing my Business Hat. You know, the one you put on before a job interview, or a meeting with an important client, or when writing a compelling pitch. With your Business Hat on, you’re efficient, effective, professional at all times.
And, quite possibly, if your Business Hat is like mine, then when you wear it you’re driven. Serious. Kick-ass. Willing to work very long hours, to say ‘yes’ when you want to say ‘no’.
I imagine my Business Hat as black. Big. Angular.
And good grief, did it turn out to be itchy.
The problems with my Business Hat first emerged when I found a new hat. This one I loved. It’s soft, it’s warm, it’s colourful. It isn’t stylish, or showy. It’s very me.
This hat, which I found when I began writing novels, is really comfortable. And when I would take off this Creative Hat and put my Business Hat back on, it was hard not to notice the difference. The Business Hat felt heavy. And prickly.
Thankfully, the Universe helped me out, by sending me opportunities to bring my creativity into my work. One client in particular, with whom I worked for more than a decade, really valued my creative writing and quickly incorporated it into our work together. She gave me free rein to wear that Creative Hat, and it was glorious.
I began stepping beyond nuts-and-bolts editing and coaching writers. Supporting them and encouraging them. Sharing with them my own experiences as a writer – even the vulnerabilities and anxiety. I loved this work; I found I was connecting with clients in a new and meaningful way.
I began to question my approach to my business. Where had I got this idea that I had to wear my specific Business Hat? Who said it had to be so not-me, so uncomfortable and such a contrast to my Creative Hat?
Why couldn’t I be professional and reliable and efficient but also creative and authentic?
The best thing about being your own boss is that you shape your job, you make the rules, and you can pivot when you need to. And so, I’ve pivoted.
I’ve hung up my Business Hat, the tired old thing, faded and fraying in places. Now, I wear my comfy hat, integrating my creativity in my work. It makes me a better writer, I feel, and a better editor and coach.
And I’m rocking the crocheted daisies.
